...i need a hug...

They say that sometimes, in order to get your priorities straight in life, if nothing else works, a tragedy will do it every time.

Well, I musta been mighty...fudged (won't use the real word on the Lord's day, but the desire is heavily there) up to get hit twice. One I found out from my pastor and I cannot speak about it (and finding this out again via my pastor, like last time, hurts), but the other...

...my noisy, annoying, boisterous, talkative, little, small, suddenly very sick brother who's only eleven just got taken from the ER to the hospital. Usually if everything's going to be ok, the ER lets you go home. Not to the hospital.

My Father, my Savior, and my Counselor....
My God, my God...
...I know You have it all under control, and I know You aren't punishing me. I'm just so very sorry it took all this to see that I've been selfish. Please help me learn from this anguish how to be, if only slightly, a better person.
Amen.

...i need a hug...please...