Bleck
'Bout to leave for work, and I feel quite emotionally ill about what happened yesterday. Which confuses me, since I did nothing wrong. When I woke up just now from my nightmare about me being a little girl that was kidnapped by this one crazy guy, and me also playing a cop trying to save the little girl....it was weird, but I realized why yesterday is bothering me so much.

I also know that there's just some information people (even you, beloved) should never be burdened with, no matter how much I want to scream about it. I've spent most of my life stuffing my feelings of being upset inside (thus the upset stomach I've developed all my life, XP) and although I've gotten better about talking more about being upset these days, this particular incident is something I have to stuff inside--if only for now. And I don't want to.

I just want to forget the whole thing ever happened.

Adonai, Father in Heaven, I feel so sick. Please protect and carry me through today.