Oh loooooooook, Ginny's first proper full time schedule
You'll forgive me if that sounds a tad grouchy. I don't mind working the 4o hours, it's the way they're all set up that is making me cranky. I don't mind eating, it's the "forcing myself to eat" aspect that makes me sick to my stomach. I don't mind being worn out at night, because I finally FINALLY actually sleep without tossing and turning.

No, seriously. That's a perk. Big time.

*forces self to swallow food* Ugh...if I don't eat now, I won't be able to till 11:3o tomorrow and there's no way I could make it to then.

But to recap, things are ok. Not the way I was expecting them to be, but they're ok. Better than they have been the last few months, I can tell you that much. I still have to drive past my old job to get to my new one...it's a weird feeling...as if I'm vacation and doing something else for a bit. So on the one hand, I'm not terribly concerned if I ever lose this current job. On the other, I know this is for real and I need to keep it.

I can do this. It's just going to take time. ^_^