Just something that popped into my head last night...

I look up to Heaven for answers
I strain ears for wails from below
Their silence is more defeaning
Their lost words more useless
Nothing to be said?
Or am I just not listening
the right way?

I want anwers again, ones bursting full of information that will set my mind at ease, that will assure me everything's going to be ok. My obsession with perfection is trying to take control of everything again, and I have still got to realize I'm just a human, not God.

He'll take care of it.

And just because it isn't done my way doesn't mean that He hasn't taken care of it.
Because sometimes, He's working for the good of others, of those who are more desperately in need of having it "their way".

I met a girl yesterday that, if what she had described happened to me, was completely down on her luck. I'm sure she feels pretty miserable. I was in no position to help her with what she needed and all I can do at this point is pray.
That's enough, sometimes.

I wonder how hard I pray. I admit that sometimes I slack, and I shouldn't. I do know that there are times when my soul is just aching as I pray (I can see Dan nodding right now at this ^_^), and I feel so in tune with God. But I know that I can't pray other people into God's favor. I can't pray and think that it's going to manipulate Him into doing my will, because I rarely ever see the Big Picture.

By the way, if you are reading this, rest assured I pray for you.

And now, off to work (after I've been off from work for a week, heh).