In Memory of John Neirman
Here's to hoping Christmas in Heaven is more than you dreamed

Hope
I remember reading in another one of my online journals from half a year back about how most online peeps only post poems or lyrics that speak of how terrible the world is.
Truthful? Yes.
Depressing? Really.
I've been through more than most people would care to admit occurs in the world. I, out of most of you, should be plastering words of death and bitter sarcasm all over this blog in bold, italic, and really huge letters.

Heh. Yeah, right.

Mom was commenting on this very subject earlier today. And I had one of those moments where I just spoke before I thought:
"If you don't have hope, then what's left in life?"

S'truth.

I already know one of my blog readers is shaking their head at my endlessly optimistic and possibly even delusional attitude. You'll forgive me if I blow a raspberry at you and giggle kindly. ^_^

Sure, sometimes life rushes by so fast that it takes a while to catch one's breath. Sometimes that "a while" is so long that it hurts, and if even longer still, results in one becoming numb to everything. But is that the fault of life...or the fault of one?

Yes, life can royally screw you over, and it will continue to do so if you remain passive to its whims. But you don't have to sit and take it forever.

If there's one thing I believe above all else (sans God), it is that no person should ever have the ability to negatively manipulate another. I refuse to do it, and I can't stand to watch others do so. I have always wanted to believe that I can be who I want to be without someone else telling me how I have to be, because, that way, if I can understand myself in my fullness without being told whether I am right or not, proper or not, or how to understand myself, then I can love myself that much more.

Erhm, think I just confused myself with that last paragraph. @_@

I have hope. I am glad to have hope. I am not in denial for having hope. It prompts my smiles, tickles my laughter out of me, and lets me enjoy life freely, without worrying about whether I'm living properly.

I have hope.

^_^